刚刚回来，现在已经是夜里１２点多了．今天我们举办的中国ＰＡＲＴＹ很成功．大家的反映都不错，他们很喜欢我们做的中国饭．不过，真的是好累好累，哎，尤其是第一次办ＰＡＲＴＹ没有经验，所以买了很多的春卷，本来以为会比较省事，可是原来炸春卷是那么麻烦的事，五盒春卷我们整整炸了有两三个小时．都炸到想吐了．呵呵，ＪＥＮＩＦＦＥＲ说她以后再也不会吃春卷了，可见它对春卷的憎恨啦．还很惨的事是我穿着高跟鞋忙前忙后的，从下午三点到晚上１１点就没有坐下来歇过，还有更可怕的是，回来还要穿着它踩雪，要知道现在芬兰的雪很厚很厚，哎，痛苦啊．不过可见我现在穿高跟鞋的技术也日渐长进啦．

　虽然很累，可是想想能为大家做点事，让芬兰人和国际朋友多了解中国还是很开心的．只是我没有认真的准备一些节目，觉得很惭愧．不过没有关系，以后还是有机会的．而且今天还趁机穿上了从中国带来的传统的小旗袍，呵呵，忙里偷闲和ＪＥＮＩＦＦＥＲＺ照了几张照片．还不错．

  Hehe, the first big snow came finally, everything is so quiet and beautiful. The past four days seems so nice now. At that time, don't have so much feeling,but now I even began missing. Don't know why my feeling also come so late,every time just feel the nice after the time past. As my friend told me, maybe you feel you don't like the life in Finland, but when you leave her, look back, you will feel that the beautiful of her.I really feel sorry didn't go to the airport to send him off. Now looking at the pictures, the past time seems so nice.

  Now the life become busy again, lots of studies and activies. I know I never be forgot by my friends,it's good to be with them. Now I know Iam so social a person, so like to have friends be with(or a person be with).during the christmas holiday,I just keep myself away from the world. Looking for the peace inside myself. But in fact, these days, i felt bad. Sometimes, I just force myself too much,i think. What do I try to avoid? Now, I like a little hurt sheep,I am so afraid of get hurt again. why be so negative to life, I just know to wait, but good luck and true love won't come to you by itself. I have to take the initiative to look for happy life!

  attache some new pictures.

　　最近一直没有激情来更新自己的日志．因为这段日子突然丧失了对芬兰的所有的兴趣，心中满是埋怨，只想快点离开这个没有生气与欢乐的地方．也许每一个到芬兰的人都会这种过程，对这中生活感觉到无聊厌倦的过程．呵呵，虽然我知道态度决定一切，虽然我知道当你对世界微笑的时候，他也会对你微笑．可是目前自己真的没有什么心情来对生活微笑．哎，现在每天只是拼命的学习，我告诉自己：有一天我会离开芬兰，我要去我喜欢的国家，充满阳光和欢乐的国家！　一定！

　　damn,this weekend is really not nice.cos my legs are so hurt. Last friday, I went to the body course and dance course, I took them together and maybe I did too much , then my legs began to revenge me the next day. and until now, they are still ached so much.

　　But I really don't want to stay at home all day,it's so bothering to be alone. I found that I am becoming so strange since I came to Finland. On one hand, I am more and more enjoying the privacy space, but on the other hand, I am more and more afraid of lonely. I don't know why, sometimes i even think that maybe I am too demanding to the life. it's impossible to own the kind of life as you want. It's a wonderful idea to invent a type of robot that can meet all the needs you want. He can be father, boyfriend, good friends and even teacher in different time as you like. If It would become ture,I think most of the people will feel happiness is not so far away.

　　新年都过了有一个星期了，现在才想到写点东西．呵呵，真是后知后觉．在芬兰的第一个假期就这样过去了，没有什么感觉．可能自己已经没有那种小女生的心情去体验去享受了，只是觉得自己有很多东西没有做，学业上也很有压力．需要努力提高的东西更多．在这里还是要感谢很多人的，很多的朋友给了我快乐和关心，尤其是给了我很多生活上的指点，让我更好的了解芬兰这个社会，也更快的融入．现在对这里的一切已经比刚来时的适应多了．西方的文化和人与人之间微妙的关系是需要自己一点点的体会的．在这个更注重平等与人权的社会，你的一切会得到尊重，但是在人与人互相尊重个人隐私与空间的时候，那种距离感和心里上的寂寞感又是同时存在的．有时候不想让自己想的太多，因为很累，因为有时候知道的太多反而是一种累赘，它会让你瞻前顾后，会让你焦虑，反而会阻碍你去行动．只是自己现在还没有修炼到这种境界去直达自己的目标而不受一切的干扰．

　　自己还是在变，变的更注重自我空间，更加享受这里的有秩序，平静而有序的生活空间，害怕中国的那喧嚣与吵闹了．不知道以后自己还会变成什么样呢？

　　前天去上舞蹈课和健身操课，搞的我的腿疼的象断了一样．哎，痛苦！